Plunging into...

God, what in the world was I thinking, admitting that I had a crush to my friends. Now I am actually going to have to do something about it!!! I would rather climb up in the air on a poundingship and take the chances of falling into shark infested waters. I think that is a lot safer. Why do I always end up fearing the outcome of things like these? Damn, if I could jump into South China Sea without a lifejacket on, I could do anything, or so I thought. Damn it, damn my big mouth, damn ME!!!!




Time: 2250
Date: 19/07/2010

Dating -.-

Hm, I am turning nineteen in about two weeks' time, yet up till now I have yet to go on a single date. What do I say, I am always the best friend, never the girlfriend. But somehow, I think that I should take my time. I mean come on, am I the only person who thinks that I am a little bit too young to start dating just anyone? Hm... I got freaked out about this matter at least four times already, and I am doing my best to remain out of sight from Banana. Haiz, I would prefer to think that he doesn't know I exist. It is so much easier for everyone. I am sure I can get over this crush over time, though I don't know just how long that is going to take because I think this is the first time I had such a strong crush on a guy. Crap, just going to have to distract myself enough to get over this, I know I can... or actually, I know I should... haiz...


Time: 0020
Date: 16/07/2010

Oh my god, I cannot believe I wasted my life, staying up all night to watch the World Cup finale. I mean come on, througout the whole match (lasted two freaking hours -.-) I think the only people who did not get the yellow card were the goalkeepers and referees. Damn, that was the only action throughout the whole match, until the 116th minute when Spain scored a goal. Throughout the remaining four minutes or so, they wasted even more time running around the field. Damn... two teams and not a single hot guy?! But that aside, I saw Banana two times today (usually three, but today my lessons were cut short when one of the lecturers went for MEL Camp) and he was wearing this damn nice tee! There was white print on it, and looks damn basic and simple, but it is the color of the tee that I so love! Oh my gosh, I wonder where he got his tees from, because the colors have a wide range! I've seen him in the basic white and black, this beautiful blue, red, yellow... yeah, I also seldom see guys wear yellow, hence I think he has good taste, hahaha. Thank god he is fair (but makes me think if he ever went sailing, since it is inevitable that you get dark after sailing for a while) and all colors look good on him. Hm, I think that is enough ranting for one night XD Ciao!

Time: 2315
Date: 112/07/2010

Crap, Banana is becoming a fixture in my mind. I talk about him, think about him, daydream about him... shit, becoming an obsession of mine!!! Haiz, must get over this crush before i end up getting my heart, spleen, liver, kidneys, small and large intestines, gall bladder, bladder and other internal organ broken... AND I HAVE A FEELING HE IS ALREADY ATTACHED!!! T.T

GG



Time: 0030
Date: 05/07/2010

Haiz, it has been quite a while since I last posted an entry, not that my life has been blogworthy of late. Not to mention the fact that I was too busy as well. Hm, I have officially decided to call MG Banana dude (because of the bright yellow tee he was wearing yesterday) and my sister christened him Banana Maersk. Now that I think about it, Banana Maersk does have a cute lil sound to it, so I guess it sticks. Saw him only once today and dashed into the toilet. Considering the fact that I actually made a fool of myself two times in front of him before, I am not taking the risk of seeing him again -.- Besides, I'd rather admire from afar, hahahahaha!! Anyway, that's all (pretty pathetic if you asked me) for now, so till next time, ciao!




Time: 1910
Date: 01/07/2010

I am waiting to see how long it takes for my friends to notice that I have disappeared from the conversation, and it is depressing to realise that they will most probably not notice at all...







Time: 2320
DAte: 08/06/2010

Ah, it has been a while since I last blogged. Haiz, I really hate studying because my family makessuch snide remarks about me actually studying. But when I don't, they nag at me. What am I supposed to do then, huh?! Life's been pretty okay, I found a friend who was willing to entertain my nonsense, for now that is XD And he introduced me to another two friends I find very interesting. Watched a movie after studying one whole day yesterday, and it was good (there was a hot and cute guy, lol!). That is all for now, I guess XD and damn, I just realised that I am growing old too fast!!!





Time: 1225
Date: 06/06/2010