Hm, I saw three damn cute guys today, two of which have damn hot figures!! LOL!! But then again, I only like one of them, the first one I saw today (but he is a damn smoker!!!) I think I have a thing for tall guys (especially those at least one head taller than me) in the boiler suit (or is it just him??). But then again, as much as I enjoy looking at those guys... damn, I still am a sentimental fuck even after two and a half months...






Tine: 2020
Date: 24/05/2010

Why is it that the harder I try to forget something, the more I remember? It is tortorous, to be thinking about it day in and day out, knowing that it will never happen, it will never come. Shit, this is turning me into a sentimental fuck. What is worse is tha I don't think I can bring myself to hate it to... sentimental fuck! Shit!!




Time: 2200
Date: 22/05/2010

Thank god I passed the eye sight test. And yes, I am as low as to consider smashing the paper (stating that I passed) into the Captain's face. But he should thank his lucky starts that thinking of something and actually doing it are two entirely different things, though I am sure the sin is as big in both cases...





Time: 2250
Date: 20/05/2010

Gosh, I nearly killed a lecturer who dared to tell me to put my dreams on hold indefinitely. Granted he had more experience and had a point when he mentioned my family, but how dare he use those as an excuse to stop me from what I want to do?! I am going to another lecturer for advice and I am so going to flip if he stopped me too! In fact, the more they stop me, the more I am going to find a way to do as soon as I graduate! Just wait and see!





Time: 2025
Date: 18/05/2010

I just realise that my friends are blogging more frequently than I am, which is saying something considering the fact that I used to blog every day/ every other day. But then again, right now I don't think that my life is blog worthy, considering the fact that I actually have nothing to look forward to now apart from taking my BST (which will cost me a fucking $890) and looking for a Company. Nothing had ever seemed this important to me before, and I can't help but wonder, was I really that laidback about my future before? For the first time in my life, I am actually anxious about something. But I kind of like it, for the first time I seem to have purpose in life (even though to come and think about it, my purpose now is to leave everythng and everyone behind). Anyway, that should be all for now, I shall try to come back soon to update. Not thatanyone reads my blog anyway :/

Time: 2310
Date: 11/05/2010

What is with people and wisdom teeth? Mine haven't even grown yet T.T hahahahahahaha! But then again, I don't think I want it to come out, it simply means that I am getting old. Ah, it is May already. I can't help but worry about the company thing, will I be able to get into a company before I graduate? I also want to go to Vladivostok in September so bad, it is the other thing on my mind apart from the company thing. Then I realised, all the things that I want very badly (enough to give up a lot of things for) involve me leaving. Damn, that means that something is very wrong...


Time: 1615
Date: 07/05/2010