I actually considered doing it again just now, in the morning before I took the shower. Previously it was last night, when I bought bubble tea. Damn it, if I did it for the fourth time and I succeeded, I won't be able to go sailing. That was the only thing that stopped me from raiding the cabinet again once everybody is in their respective rooms. God help me, I think I seriously need help this time. I am this close to giving in to the temptation once more, and I am not sure that I am able to gather enough strength and will power to actually push the temptation away, since sailing is the only reason I am doing anything right now. God, if something happened to take sailing away... I don't even want to think about that. Not right now, not when I feel like I have lost everything else in my life. Nope, I shall not think of that...
Time: 2305
Date: 04/08/2010
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