Damage control (for the umpteenth time!!!!)

No thanks to my fickle classmates, the sailing trip to Hong Kong was almost cancelled to all DMTM students (me included!!). Thankfully I managed to catch Captain Fred and did some damage control. So now it is still open to DMTM students, though in limited numbers as there are only six of us going. Just because we are shore-based doesn't mean we can't go and have some fun out at sea, people! I will not let fickle people spoil things for the rest of us, that I am certain of. Hm, it occured to me that I am always the one doing damage control be it among friends, classmates and lecturers or family members. Why can't I be the damage for once? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! That will be the day Fatin Rasyidah Bte Mohd Rashiad stops being the damage control person and BE the damage instead! Hm, but then again, I always feel like it is my responsibility to smoothen things out for everyone. Not that it bothers me anyway. I am way used to it by now. But sometimes I can't help but wonder what it would be like for me to be the one causing everyone else trouble instead, lol! Hm, enough about such childish dreams. I had a pretty good (albeit lazy) day today. I was supposed to take a walk home, ended up on the freaking bus instead. OMG! Lazy pig!!! Hm, I have to definitely go jogging this Friday morning before school. I should probably stop eating so much as well, since I am so not moving at all. I mean come on, the moment I stepped into the house, the only movement I make is when I walk from my room to the master bedroom's toilet for a shower, before walking back to my room when I am done. That cannot constitute as exercise, I think, hahahahahahahahahahahaha! Anyway, I think that should be all today, I've been negative enough in the past few days to actually cover for the rest of the year! So no more negativity coming from me for the rest of the year!!!! (It'll be good if I can last till the end of this week, lol!) And to think that I actually told my friend that I would try to be a little more positive. That goes to show that you shouldn't shoot your mouth off just because your friend said something negative to you!!!! I think that should be all for today... :D

Time: 2045
Date: 26/01/2010

Happy!!!

For some strange reason, I was happy all throughout the second half of today in school. I mean, I don't mind being happy, but I think that there should actually be a reason behind that happiness, lol! Hm, as usual, all emotions (negative or otherwise) fled me the moment I reached home. Home is the place where I am generally devoid of feelings for some strange reason. Whatever problems I have in school will disappear the moment I step into my room, and all my personal (home stuff) problems will disappear the moment I step out of the house. I am that kind of person, though I don't know why. Hm, I think from another point of view, it would be better because it means that I don't mix my problems up. Oh wait, I just remembered why I was so high just now, I had four chicken drumlets during the foreign language class, and they were magnificent! LOL! I don't feel like a noob anymore now that I know the reason to my happiness! Anyway, I am planning to walk home tomorrow, since I finish at half past five and have nothing else on. I want to clear my mind before I start working, and a walk is the best way to do it. Besides, it has been a really long while since I last took a nice walk. I am going to make sure that my bag is as light as it could possibly be tomorrow :D Speaking of taking walks, I have officially signed up for a trial week at a gym. Not that I am undecided about it, I have more or less confirmed that I want to join that particular gym. It is just that with school, its activities and my job, not to mention the upcoming exams, I don't think I am able to find the time. So I made an appointment for the 17th of February, at ten in the morning. I don't have school anymore then, not to mention the following paper will be on the 18th February. After the gym session, I will have better blood circulation, which will result in a more productive revision for my Statistics, lol! But then again, I will start my revision much earlier than just the day before, so there isn't much to worry about, I think. Despite the fact that I have never been to a gym in my life, and do not have a single clue as to how the machinery works and stuff, I am actually looking forward to it. Who knows, I might just be able to get my stamina backand be able to swim thirty laps in one shot once more, and maybe even more. There is nothing wrong for little girls to dream, anyway ;) Anyway, I think that is enough ranting for now, will be back pretty soon for an update.

Time: 2235
Date: 25/01/2010

Tri-lingual

I just realised that everyone (and I mean every single one) in my family can speak three languages. My father speaks English, Malay and Arabic, my mother speaks English, Malay and Hokkien, my sister speaks English, Malay (a little bit) and French, while I speak English, Malay (a little bit) and Korean. It is almost like an obligation to be able to speak more than the standard languages in my family. Hm, at least it makes it more interesting (not that anyone can understand me when I speak Korean, nor my sister when she speaks French). But my sister and I are at least trying to pick up each other's language, so that we can converse more fluently in both French and Korean instead of just either language. I am currently wondering what I should have for beakfast tomorro because I have a feeling that there will not be anything to eat again. Maybe I'll just eat in school in the morning. I can then skip lunch, and have a lunch/ dinner at half past five at FC 6. For some reason, I love FC 6. The food is cheap, and the portion is just right for me. Not to mention eye candy as well, mwuahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! I am starting work this coming Wednesday, and nervous as I am, I will look forward to it positively. I think I am going to sleep pretty soon, but then again, I don't really see the need to sleep so early since I will be waking up at half past eight anyway. Sometimes I really wonder why I become the middleman for my Captains as well as my classmates. Everytime there is an upcming event, the same thing happens over and over again. People indicate their interest, confirmed it, and I send it in and the next thing I know, there will be people telling me they want to pull out. And when I tell the Captain that they want to pull out, a couple of days later, the come back to me and tell me to put their name back in. It occurs a few times, this vicious cycle, until the one who ends up looking fickle is me! I have never been fickle in my life, and I don't like looking like a fickle person, neither do I actually like entertaining fickle people. But then again, it is my responsibility to do so, so I am going to just suck it up like a man and do my job with gritted teeth, lol!!!! Anyway, enough complaining for today!!! I am so looking forward to tomorrow (Monday).

Time: 2305
Date: 24/01/2010

I HAVE HOPE!!!!!!!!!

I was checking my email, for the second time today hahahahahahahahaha, and read my daily horoscope. Today's one fill me with a lot of hope, for some strange reason, hahahahahahahhahahaha. Maybe it's because for the first time in a really long while, it is actually applicable to me!!!! Here it is:

Denying your crush won't make it go away, no matter how much you want it to.
Admit that you are attracted to this person. It doesn't mean you have to act on it.
Before you know it, the feeling will pass.

Yes! hat is exactly what I have been hoping for!!! The feeling to pass!!! Woohoo!!! LOL! Hm, I think I am making something really negative sound positive, but really, the person is not someone I am supposed to have a crush on, especially when I do not want to lose my friendship (or rather acquaintance, because I am not that close to him or anyone for that matter, lol) that I have with him. I was also feeling rather peaceful for most of today (reason being I was alone on long bus rides all over Singapore, hahahahahahahaha!) and even bought chocolate fondant. As usual, I bought two, as my dad is a diabetic and I don't encourage him to eat too much sugary stuff, and my mother doesn't eat these kind of things, leaving me and my sister. I always end up being nice to my sister despite the fact that she is really bitcy towards me. Hell, my parents and sister treat a stray cat better than they do me. I mean, my mother can buy special cat food so that the cat won't hurt its teeth, but she can't seem to cook a simple dish for me to eat after a long and tiring day at school. Not that I mind though, I am trying out something new. I am going to live my life, and leave them out of it as much as possible, and they can do the same. This way it saves everyone from heartache!! Hehehe, am I a genius or what? But then again, I can't seem to turn my bck on my responsibilities, so this was more of a daydream than anything else. But if anything, I don't mind shouldering my responsibilities, it's who I am, hahahahahahahahaha. Anyway, off to enjoy my love affair ;)

Time: 2135
Date: 23/01/2010

In school...

Blogging in school but this time with my own laptop. I think it has been one year since I last brought my laptop out of my house, lol! I don't really like bringing my laptop to school because I tend to acted by it, especially when I need to use the laptop in class. I ended up chatting while doing my research. Thankfully I managed to get about three quarters of it done within ten minutes, otherwise I will swear off bringing my laptop to school again! Hm, I think I shall continue with this later when I get home...

Time: 1740
Date: 22/01/2010

Starting a new job

Hm, I guess in a way, it is not really a new job, because I've been a relief teacher before. But I've never actually had a whole class to my own, as in, I am the actual teacher for that lesson, and not just the relief. It is something new, and though I am a little worried that I might end up teaching the kids the wrong thing (me and my friends agree that not only that I am abnormal, I tend to be a little stupid at times) and that would be a total no-no. But then again, I am so looking forward to this. I mean come on, where and when else can I get the experience of being a teacher??? But then again, I have to reconfirm the sailing dates, so that I can arrange for a relief to take over me for a couple of days or so. Hopefully only one day, because it might reflect badly on me, since I did say that I am able to make it every single Wednesday. I kind of like working for the MOE, because it means that I have CPF!! Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha I think I am the only kid who actually thinks about all these kind of things. But then again, you might never know what will happen in the future. I've divided my money already, so no matter what happens my "assets" are taken care of, lol! Hm, speaking of something happening, I really wonder how other people can die from overdosage. I think it is more or less impossible. But negative matters aside, I am going to watch a movie tomorrow!!! With my friends!!!! And I don't have to worry about my dad scolding me when I reach home late because he won't be home either!!!! Wow, what a good day today has been. But I am not too sure about tomorrow though, because even though I am looking forward to the outing, I have a feeling that I might get let out in conversation. As an abnormality of nature, I have few things in common with the rest of the people out there. I can try, but there is only so much I can think of before I revert back to my 'freak of nature' way of thinking again, lol! But hey, I love the way I think, which is why I think that way (does this make any sense?)! What the hell, I don't even know what I mean most of the time, so who cares anyway, hahahahahahhahahahahahaha :D

Time: 2215
Date: 21/01/2010

Retest :)

For the first time in my whole life, I actually had to sit for a retest. Not that I mind though, but when I heard that the maximum marks I can possibly get from the retest is 38 (just so that I passed the whole thing overall) I got kinda irritated. I stayed back for two whole days till late just to revise, not to mention the fact that I made a friend stay back really late with me just so that he could teach me (and on Friday he ended a whole five hours earlier I did and yet he waited for me!) makes the whole thing unfair, I think. It is more unfair for him, in a sense. But on a better note... I don't know what is better, lol! I thought I could reach home before seven today, since I will be reaching home only at nine or after four out of five days this week. But I ended up reaching home at half past nine today when I had to go out for dinner with the rest of the family becausemy dad wanted to meet his friend for dinner. Damn, it is going to be quite a long week, but then again, I don't think I will mind it as much. At least I confirm will have my Sunday to rest :) young people shouldn't rest too much when we can do something useful anyway! Going to school about an hour early as usual for tomorrow, but I am not sure if I am going to meet Lou for lunch or not. I smsed him this afternoon, yet till now I have yet to receive a reply from him. If by tomorrow at half past nine I don't receive his reply, I am going to go ahead and have a brunch instead. I don't really like eating during the lunch hour, the queues are like, uber long, and everywhere is packed. But then again, I generally don't eat lunch, even if I had nothing in the morning. Hm, skipping meals is ot a very good habit to have, which is why I am eating brunch (I've been nagged at too much by my 'stepmother'). It may not sound very nice right now, but I am definitely looking forward to the weekend when I don't have to set four alarms just so that I can wake up in time to get to school twenty minutes before lessons start. Overall today was pretty good :D

Time: 2215
Date: 20/01/2010