Distant

I've been told repeatedly that I am too distant. My sister says that, My mom says that, my friends and seniors say that to me. Everyone expects me to pour out every single one of my problems just because they told me theirs, lol! But the thing is, despite being really talkative, when it comes to matters that bother me, they remain mine. I absolutely refuse to tell anyone else. The things I tell to a select few is something not exclusive. You ask me, you'll get the details. It will be here in this blog as well, hahahaha. I am not the type to lean on others, so I am sorry H, I won't tell you anything no matter how many times you ask me. But ultimately, I am not the type to share when it comes to problems. If it is mine, it stays mine. There is no way I will learn how to lean on others when other people are relying on me to support them. I will not show such weakness, lol! I saw someone just now, and I remembered someone I have tried hard to forget. Not to mention just now my mother got slightly bothered when I called home, and sounded exactly like my older brother. Even after I reached home, I still sounded like him. But the thing is, I have always sounded like this, so why was she bothered? But then, looking back, she was always bothered when I sound like Yan. Damn, I have no idea what to say to that. I am who I am, I sound like me. It's purely coincidental, she is reading way too much into this matter. My poor naive mother told me that she read about hypnosis in the malay paper some time back, and told me that she wanted to send me for it. She really wants to know why my unhappiness seems so deep-rooted. LOL! I think when she finds out, she'll be wishing that she had not known instead... hahahahahaha. On the whole, today is quite a good day, even with my mother spouting nonsense straight to my face :D

Time: 2110
Date: 08/01/2010