It is not the first time I walked away before a full friendship can be developed. In fact, I just did it again twenty minutes ago. I always walk away before things become too serious and I end up bonding with the other person/ people. I can't help it, it is a defense mechanism I have, lol! I don't really know what brought that about... maybe I am naturally a very distant person. I walked away before I get hooked... I am so sorry for turning my back on you, H. But like you said, I no longer owe you anything, so I can leave with a peaceful mind :D Besides, we have always been opposite people anyway, there was no point in the friendship if we are just going to end up arguing on every single thing, no matter how entertaining that made our acquaintance. I have a lot of that, I realise... the acquaintances. And I like to keep things that way... haiz, reading diaries from 3-5 years ago is a major mistake... those were my angsty years, lol! Thank god I feel much... number(??) now. It's better to feel numb than angry. At least you can get rid of the numbness for short periods of time, but anger is like and overriding program or something, hahahahahahaha! Time to let go of the past... but not before one last quick read, for old times' sake ;)
Time: 2315
Date: 17/01/2010
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